Monday, December 31, 2007

It’s New Year’s Eve…

I have plans tonight; plans to celebrate the New Year with good friends, plans that were made before I found out I was pregnant, plans that I now want to cancel. All I really feel like doing is crawling back into bed. I want to sleep for the next 3 weeks! That’s when this sick hangover type feeling is supposed to go away...right?

I spoke with a friend this weekend. A friend who found out she and her husband lost a baby about the time Brian and I found out we were expecting a baby. I didn’t even know she was pregnant but she suspected I was and didn’t want to tell me until she thought I could handle it. Although she seems okay, I can’t imagine what she must be going through. Our conversation made me realize that although I feel horrible, I should embrace this pregnancy and enjoy every minute of it. So from now on, I’m going to try to smile and thank God for the miracle he has brought us even when I am sitting on the bathroom floor sick to my stomach. As for tonight, I’m going to join my friends for dinner (although I’m skipping the late night dancing) and celebrate the memories we made in 2007 and toast to what 2008 has to bring.

Have a Safe and Happy New Year!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

December 27, 2007 – 7 weeks, 3 days

Growing up I was always told that I took after my mom and my grandma. When I first found out I was pregnant my mom told me how she never experienced morning sickness and neither did my grandma. I was so excited. I take after them so my pregnancy should be similar right…WRONG! I’m obviously not taking after either of them! Morning sickness…SUCKS! A coworker asked me how I was doing this morning and I said, “My baby hates me!”

I love food and I love to eat. At least I did until this past week. The first couple of weeks I was trying to eat healthy (still am trying) and I felt so good about it. I was giving my baby what it needed not only through vitamins but also by eating the right foods. However, it seems that this baby is taking after his or her dad. I can’t even bring myself to eat grilled chicken and I love chicken!!

In the end I know it’s worth it but hopefully this stage of my pregnancy ends soon. I want to be able to enjoy my pregnancy!!

December 18, 2007 - 6 weeks, 1 day

Today we saw our baby’s heart beating for the first time. I can’t put into words the feeling I got when I looked at the monitor. I wish I could carry the monitor around with me 24/7 so I can see that he or she is okay. Our baby is only about ½ the size of a gummy bear and has the strongest little heart. We our next appointment is Jan 8th. We won’t get to see the heart beating during that appointment but we will get to hear it. Can’t wait!

December 2, 2007 – We’re expecting!

Santa brought Brian and I exactly what we wanted for Christmas! We’re having a baby! Can you believe it? I’m still trying to take it all in.

How I found out….
The week before I took the test I was feeling exhausted and dizzy at times. I truly thought nothing of this. I thought it was due to working 2 jobs and getting ready for the holidays. I had previously taken pregnancy tests when I was a day late and had been disappointed. I promised myself that I would start waiting a couple days instead of just one. I was supposed to call my doctor Friday (tentative start date) and schedule my first round of tests to see if anything was wrong (since we had been trying for 8mths). I never got the opportunity. I took the test Sunday morning and got a BFP! Two lines…immediately. I couldn’t believe it. I just keep looking down at the test. My hands were shaking and I started crying. I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.

How I told Brian…
Throughout the past eight months I had planned how I would tell Brian and how we would tell our family and friends. Most of those carefully thought out plans went out the window the minute I saw the test….starting with how I told Brian. First of all, I had planned to take the test when he wasn’t home. That didn’t happen. He was home (although he didn’t know I was taking the test) and our friend Tim was also at our home. I probably should have waited to take the test until Tim left but I couldn’t wait. As soon as I saw the two lines I called Brian up to the bathroom. I couldn’t say anything, I just pointed. His response, “Are you serious? Take another test”. He then gave me a kiss and went back downstairs. I took a shower like I had planned. After my shower I went downstairs and noticed Tim gathering his things. Typically, I would have yelled at him for leaving so early but not that day. That day I was happy he was leaving early because Brian and I had so much to talk about. As soon as Tim left, Brian asked if I had taken another test. My response was no because I didn’t have to go to the bathroom! Neither one of us new what to do or say, we just smiled and sat on the couch until I could take another test. When I did…two lines immediately. I came downstairs and said, “I think we’re having a baby”.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Busy weekend...

All in all this was a busy weekend. It started with my company’s holiday party Friday night. I left work at 3:30 hoping to fit in a short nap before I need to get ready but that of course didn’t happen. Brian and I arrived to the party at 7pm and left around 11:30. The night was filled with food, drinks, dancing and a stripping Santa! We had someone from our company dress up as Santa. Much to our amusement, Santa had a little too much to drink before his grand entrance. Santa spent his time handing out presents and giving people lap dances (and showing his thong…?). OH! He also split his pants!

Saturday, I worked from 9-5:30pm. It was a long day and I didn’t feel well the entire morning. I really wanted to go home but the store was packed with people and I couldn’t leave. I felt a little better after I ate lunch but still ended up going to bed around 8:30pm that night which I was upset about because I didn’t get to finish what I needed to for Sunday.

Sunday, Brian and I headed to Lorain to celebrate an early Christmas with my dad and his side of the family. We woke up at 6am, got ready, finished wrapping Christmas gifts and headed out the door around 7am. After stopping at the grocery store and stopping to let the pups go to the bathroom we finally arrived to my grandma’s house around 10:00am and headed over to my aunt and uncle’s around noon. Because of the horrible weather that started right before we headed to my uncle’s, my cousin’s were 2 hours late to the festivities. After they arrived safely, we ate, watched the kids open their gifts, and shared some exciting stories. Brian and I headed out around 3pm and arrived home around 6pm. We actually made pretty good timing considering the weather conditions.

I’m looking forward to this coming weekend. We’re heading to Decatur to spend Christmas with Brian’s parents and the rest of our family. It should be a nice, relaxing and fun weekend. We’re looking forward to seeing our little nephew, Zane, open his presents from everyone on Christmas Eve!

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

New Year's Resolution....

I usually don’t make a New Year’s Resolution and if I do, I usually don't keep it. This year's going to be different. I going to make myself keep this one. My New Year’s Resolution for 2008 is to slow down and take in the moments that really count.

Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve realized that I need to slow down. Not everything has to be rush, rush, rush or done at a particular moment: dishes can wait, laundry can wait. I need to take things in and savor moments that really count.

I came to this realization last Saturday when Hannah stayed the night with Brian and I. Saturday morning, Brian made breakfast and then Hannah and I made cookies. Right after we were done I started cleaning the kitchen while Brian and Hannah went outside to build a snowman. From the kitchen I could hear them laughing and carrying on. Why wasn’t I outside building a snowman with them? Why was I inside cleaning and vacuuming? Is this how it’s going to be when we have kids; me inside cleaning and Brian outside having fun, creating memories? NO! I want to be outside. I want to help make those memories. That’s when I dropped the washcloth, left the remaining dishes in the sink, grabbed the camera and headed outside to take some pictures and join them in a snowball fight.

When I figure out how to post pics I’ll share some from that morning!

Here’s to resolutions that really count!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Congratulations - Adam and Stacey!!!

Our friends, Adam and Stacey, are expecting their first child in May!!! Congrats!!!