Monday, December 31, 2007
I spoke with a friend this weekend. A friend who found out she and her husband lost a baby about the time Brian and I found out we were expecting a baby. I didn’t even know she was pregnant but she suspected I was and didn’t want to tell me until she thought I could handle it. Although she seems okay, I can’t imagine what she must be going through. Our conversation made me realize that although I feel horrible, I should embrace this pregnancy and enjoy every minute of it. So from now on, I’m going to try to smile and thank God for the miracle he has brought us even when I am sitting on the bathroom floor sick to my stomach. As for tonight, I’m going to join my friends for dinner (although I’m skipping the late night dancing) and celebrate the memories we made in 2007 and toast to what 2008 has to bring.
Have a Safe and Happy New Year!
Thursday, December 27, 2007
I love food and I love to eat. At least I did until this past week. The first couple of weeks I was trying to eat healthy (still am trying) and I felt so good about it. I was giving my baby what it needed not only through vitamins but also by eating the right foods. However, it seems that this baby is taking after his or her dad. I can’t even bring myself to eat grilled chicken and I love chicken!!
In the end I know it’s worth it but hopefully this stage of my pregnancy ends soon. I want to be able to enjoy my pregnancy!!
How I found out….
The week before I took the test I was feeling exhausted and dizzy at times. I truly thought nothing of this. I thought it was due to working 2 jobs and getting ready for the holidays. I had previously taken pregnancy tests when I was a day late and had been disappointed. I promised myself that I would start waiting a couple days instead of just one. I was supposed to call my doctor Friday (tentative start date) and schedule my first round of tests to see if anything was wrong (since we had been trying for 8mths). I never got the opportunity. I took the test Sunday morning and got a BFP! Two lines…immediately. I couldn’t believe it. I just keep looking down at the test. My hands were shaking and I started crying. I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.
How I told Brian…
Throughout the past eight months I had planned how I would tell Brian and how we would tell our family and friends. Most of those carefully thought out plans went out the window the minute I saw the test….starting with how I told Brian. First of all, I had planned to take the test when he wasn’t home. That didn’t happen. He was home (although he didn’t know I was taking the test) and our friend Tim was also at our home. I probably should have waited to take the test until Tim left but I couldn’t wait. As soon as I saw the two lines I called Brian up to the bathroom. I couldn’t say anything, I just pointed. His response, “Are you serious? Take another test”. He then gave me a kiss and went back downstairs. I took a shower like I had planned. After my shower I went downstairs and noticed Tim gathering his things. Typically, I would have yelled at him for leaving so early but not that day. That day I was happy he was leaving early because Brian and I had so much to talk about. As soon as Tim left, Brian asked if I had taken another test. My response was no because I didn’t have to go to the bathroom! Neither one of us new what to do or say, we just smiled and sat on the couch until I could take another test. When I did…two lines immediately. I came downstairs and said, “I think we’re having a baby”.
Monday, December 17, 2007
Saturday, I worked from 9-5:30pm. It was a long day and I didn’t feel well the entire morning. I really wanted to go home but the store was packed with people and I couldn’t leave. I felt a little better after I ate lunch but still ended up going to bed around 8:30pm that night which I was upset about because I didn’t get to finish what I needed to for Sunday.
Sunday, Brian and I headed to Lorain to celebrate an early Christmas with my dad and his side of the family. We woke up at 6am, got ready, finished wrapping Christmas gifts and headed out the door around 7am. After stopping at the grocery store and stopping to let the pups go to the bathroom we finally arrived to my grandma’s house around 10:00am and headed over to my aunt and uncle’s around noon. Because of the horrible weather that started right before we headed to my uncle’s, my cousin’s were 2 hours late to the festivities. After they arrived safely, we ate, watched the kids open their gifts, and shared some exciting stories. Brian and I headed out around 3pm and arrived home around 6pm. We actually made pretty good timing considering the weather conditions.
I’m looking forward to this coming weekend. We’re heading to Decatur to spend Christmas with Brian’s parents and the rest of our family. It should be a nice, relaxing and fun weekend. We’re looking forward to seeing our little nephew, Zane, open his presents from everyone on Christmas Eve!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve realized that I need to slow down. Not everything has to be rush, rush, rush or done at a particular moment: dishes can wait, laundry can wait. I need to take things in and savor moments that really count.
I came to this realization last Saturday when Hannah stayed the night with Brian and I. Saturday morning, Brian made breakfast and then Hannah and I made cookies. Right after we were done I started cleaning the kitchen while Brian and Hannah went outside to build a snowman. From the kitchen I could hear them laughing and carrying on. Why wasn’t I outside building a snowman with them? Why was I inside cleaning and vacuuming? Is this how it’s going to be when we have kids; me inside cleaning and Brian outside having fun, creating memories? NO! I want to be outside. I want to help make those memories. That’s when I dropped the washcloth, left the remaining dishes in the sink, grabbed the camera and headed outside to take some pictures and join them in a snowball fight.
When I figure out how to post pics I’ll share some from that morning!
Here’s to resolutions that really count!
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Monday, November 26, 2007
The table looked great. I used the holiday China Terri got me as a shower gift and we finally used the water goblets we got as a wedding gift. I made a few snacks for everyone to nibble on while watching football until dinner was ready. Tim made homemade gravy (he wasn’t too excited about my canned gravy) and help Brian carve the turkey. Brian said grace and we all said what we were thankful for. After dinner we ate pie and watch football until everyone decided to head home. All in all…it was a good day.
I’ll post some pics when I find time to figure how to post them!
Thursday, November 8, 2007
I’ve decided things need to change. Yesterday I committed myself to running the mini marathon in April! Myself along with about 10 people from my company are planning to train together and keep each other motivated. My goal is to run the first 5 miles and then do a walk/run the rest of the way and to finish in less than 3hrs. This is definitely going to be a challenge, considering I can barely run one mile without feeling like I’m going to fall over!
Friday, November 2, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Keira’s 30th Birthday was so much fun. She was so surprised and we all had a great time eating, drinking, and watching the OSU game. Leslie and Eric got back from Europe earlier in the week so they were able to attend which was such a great surprise for everyone. OH! I also felt Baby Naegele kick. I was so excited I started crying (what can I say…I’m an emotional person). This party reminded me why I am so happy to be back in Columbus. I love being so close to my friends (although I still miss my Indy friends).
As for Sunday, Brian and I woke up, took the pups for a walk/run and then started working on the house. We didn’t get far. Brian anchored my utility cabinet to the wall in the garage and I started putting some of the kitchen/entertaining items in it…that’s about as far as we got. We had a date at 3pm with Hannah. We picked her up and headed Build-a-Bear where she picked out a pink poodle. She picked out some clothes for “Isabella” (purple dress, silver heals) and then we headed to the food court for some lunch. After we dropped her off, I headed to OSU for a sorority meeting. It was the first time I had been the sorority house since I moved to Indy. I was very impressed with the ladies of Kappa Delta. They’ve been named sorority of the year for the past 4 out of 5 years. After meeting them, I understand why. Anyway, I was there for about 3 hours helping them slate their new council and then headed home. Busy weekend but fun weekend for the most part (I really need to rethink this part-time job thing….maybe after the holidays)!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Anyway, my reason for saying this because I think it’s funny how our priorities change as we get older. The things that used to bore us now excite us. Here's an example. Today, I called my husband after lunch told him how excited I was about my new purchase. What was my new purchase you ask? Well, during lunch I went to Lowes and bought a new utility storage cabinet for our garage! How crazy is that? I wasn’t calling him to tell him about a new cute outfit, shoes, or purse. No, I was excited about a damn storage cabinet! When did this happen?
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I have been working in the accounting field for 5 years. Throughout this time I have been struggling to figure out what it is I really want to do. I keep asking myself if I really like accounting. I’ve decided the answer is yes, I like accounting. I’ve realized that what I don’t enjoy is feeling like I don’t get the respect I deserve because I don’t have an accounting degree. Having that degree would definitely make me more marketable when looking for jobs in the accounting field and it would also allow me to sit for the CPA exam if I ever decided I wanted to. It would give me options.
However, do I really want a career in accounting or do I want a career in event planning? I love planning and I would love to be a wedding planner. It would allow me to be both creative and analytical. I could create beautiful weddings and track budgets at the same time. However, we are thinking about starting a family. Do I really want to work on the weekends and in the evenings? I’ve talked to people who work in the event planning business and all of them say you love it for about the first year and after 3 years you’re ready to get out. You have no weekends to yourself, especially around the holidays. I’m finding it hard to schedule the holidays with our family because of my part-time job at BBB...I can’t imagine how it would be if I was an event planner. If I could have an event planning/wedding planning career with the typical 8-5 hours…now that would be my dream job! I feel like I should have a career that I like and hobbies that I love. I don’t want my career to be my life. I want most of my time spent with family and friends. If I did event planning full time I would probably end up hating it.
So that brings me back to accounting. I’ve been researching schools here in Columbus and one offers a Certificate of Accounting Concentration. In other words, if I completed this program, it would be like I had my bachelor’s degree in marketing and in accounting (double major I should have done). This certification would definitely make me more marketable and give me more options. And I could always start my own wedding planning business on the side (like I’ve been talking about doing). I could decide to accept jobs that worked with my schedule. Best of both worlds?
So what do I do? I’ll let you know when I decide.
Friday, October 19, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I love quotes. I love how one or two sentences can say so much. I thought I’d share a quote that was included in an email I received from a friend today.
"I believe that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become."
Growing up and I guess even now, I get frustrated with people who blame their parents or their family life for how they turned out or why they act a certain way. Every one goes through hard times but I think it’s up to each individual to decide what path they want to follow. I realize some people are stronger than others but I also believe that you are who you want to be and if you don’t like who you are then only you can take the steps to become the person you want to be.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I was recently told I don’t take risks. Actually the conversation was more like, “You don’t let me take any risks!” After thinking about it, it's true. I don’t take risks. I’m a planner. I like to be organized and know what’s going on. This is especially true when it comes to money. I log on to our checking and savings accounts everyday or every other day to make sure everything is accounted for. I have a breakdown of where every paycheck or bonus check is going for the next 6 months, how much credit card debt we should have at the end of the 6 months and how much we should have in savings. Yes, I have to adjust this monthly but at least I have a plan of what should happen.
So, what happens when one of us wants to take a risk that might affect us financially? The idea of not knowing exactly how much income is going to come in monthly scares me. Although I know that we’ll be fine, I hate the idea of not knowing - Not knowing if the risk will be worth it, not knowing how much of our savings we will have to use, just simply not knowing…. I have so many what if scenarios that play out in my mind.
So again, what happens when one of us wants to take a risk that might affect us financially? I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and well, I guess it depends. If the risk involves taking money to Vegas with hopes of winning at the blackjack or poker table then you laugh and say NO (unless it’s $ you saved for that reason). If it’s something that has to do with your husbands career, his passion, and his dream of being his own boss then you support him. You prepare as much as you can for the unknown and let him go for it. The last thing I would ever want is for him to look back 5 or 10 yrs from now and regret not taking the risk and I wouldn’t want to be the reason he didn’t take the risk or follow his dream.
I know we will get through whatever life throws at us. I might do a lot of praying along the way and he might have to calm me down every now and then but we’ll get through it and I’m sure the risk will be worth it in the end.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Looks like this weekend is going to be busy too! I have to work tomorrow from 9am–3pm. After work, I’m heading home to watch the game (OSU/Northwestern) I plan to relax for the night and maybe take the pups for a long walk. Sunday we are heading to our neighbors football game, then we are taking Hannah to a Blue Jackets game.
Have a good weekend!
Friday, August 31, 2007
So here’s to another summer coming to an end and a new fall season beginning!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
I want something that I truly have no control over. I thought I did but it turns out… I don’t! I think that’s the part that’s driving me crazy. I’m a planner and I can’t plan for it. I can’t say okay, I want it now and have it now. I can’t go buy it and I can’t make the things that need to work, work in order for me to have it. Anyway, hopefully I have this thing that I want someday and when I do, I’ll let you know.
Friday, August 24, 2007
This was the first month Brian and I were home for more than a week at a time so it was the perfect time to do the things we’ve wanted to do around the house. Brian started painting the trim (including garage) outside and it looks fantastic. He did such a great job. The house looks 100x’s better than it did. I painted the trim (including doors) inside…it definitely brightens up the place. We also replaced the lighting in the kitchen and the fan in our bedroom. I shampooed the carpet in every room and finally organized the 2nd spare room. I have to say, I think we did a great job!
We have so much more we want to do in the house but I think our next big project will be to replace the flooring in the bathrooms. We have a close friend who just laid new flooring in his bathrooms and it looks great!
As for this weekend, the whole reason we planned the summer BBQ was so Pat, Maya, and Zane could meet everyone and so everyone could meet them but I kind of wish we had planned our BBQ for a different weekend so we could have more one on one time with them. I hope they enjoy their visit and the next time they come, we’ll have to plan to go to the Short North to see the art galleries.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
The song is about a man who thinks he wants to be with a particular person and he prays about it all the time but his prayers are never answered. One day he runs into this person, he thinks about their relationship and how he prayed so hard to be with this person. Then he looks at his wife and sees all the good things that have happened in his life and how he can’t imagine being with anyone else.
I hear this song from time to time and just smile. I think of my past relationships and how I prayed and prayed for those relationships not to end. At the time, I thought my prayers where not being answered but the truth is they were. God had someone better in mind for me, I just had to wait for him.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Last night Brian and I completed our Children Services Friendship Volunteer training and these are a few questions that popped into my mind when a coordinator said “How can a child dream what they don’t know”. I am so excited that Brian and I have decided to become volunteers for this organization. I am looking forward to not only being a friend for this child but a person who she can depend on, a person that can expose her to new thoughts, ideas and activities and a person who can show her or help her learn that she can be whatever she wants to be if she’s willing to work hard and over come the difficulties in her life. God won’t give you more than you can handle.
I know when Brian and I have a children I want to expose them to everything I possibly can. I want them to play sports, take music and dance lessons. I want to take them to arts festivals and plays. I want to travel with them and expose them to other cultures. I want to have them volunteer at an early age and learn that helping people is a great thing. I want them to have every opportunity possible. I want them to know they can be whatever they want to be.
I have to give credit to the parents that allow their children to have volunteers through Children Services. It has to be hard to allow another adult to come into their child’s life and give them or expose them to things they can’t. It just goes to show that no matter who you are or what difficulties have been thrown your way, you always want what’s best for your child.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Thank you honey. I love you!!!
Monday, July 23, 2007
Tonight Brian and I are having dinner over Jared and Cindy’s. I’m actually excited about it. Although I’m depressed about turning 29 I think I would regret not celebrating it. I’m just going to tell myself that we’re celebrating life not my age! Here's to turning 29!
Friday, July 20, 2007
Here’s the beginning of my list:
1. Finish the laundry
2. Finish painting the trim
3. Sit outside and read a book while the dogs play
4. Watch General Hospital
5. Finish packing for our lake weekend
I know, some of these things don’t sound that exciting but I’d rather being doing them instead of being at work. I’d actually feel like I was accomplishing something today.
As for the weekend, I’m really looking forward to going to the lake with Laurel and Jason. They’ve never been to the Laurent Cottage so I’m excited for them to see what we’ve been talking about. It will be nice and relaxing with just the four of us there. I wish we were there right now!
Monday, July 16, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
With that being said, Brian and I have been TTC for 2 months now. Two month is really not that long. Most doctors say that if you haven’t conceived after a year there may be a problem. A year…now that’s a long time. Luckily, my doctor said that most couples conceive within the first 6 months if they are actually trying and do not have fertility problems. If we do not conceive by then she said to call her and we will talk about how we would like to proceed.
Since I can’t control when it happens (It will happen in time) I'll keep doing what I’ve been doing. I’ll just keep tracking my cycle, taking my vitamins and eating the right foods. This somehow helps me feel like I have so kind of control over things....
Friday, July 6, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
I have to say, there is nothing I love more than taking a walk with my husband and our pups on a nice evening.